my mitsy!

the day i held u in arms,
the brightest day of my darkest times
ur soft fur and your emerald eyes,
so innocent,yet they look so wise
u brought a smile onto my face
something that i had long forgotten..

u clung to me like a child who lost her way
i knew u felt the same abandoned love
i knew u had the same fears as i had
a new place, a new face..
and the only thing u were sure was of the uncertainty

But i held u close and i whispered to you
im never gonna abandon you,
u looked me in the eye, and licked my face
as if to say that ur telling me the same..

my mitsy, u changed my world
my mitsy,u brought me luck
my mitsy, i love with all my heart!!!

why do people hurt with words when they dont mean it?
why do they make u believe something that ur not?
why is that the distance keeps on growing with the ones u love?
i know u feel helpless, i know you cant bear to see it..
but u are the only sane thing in my insane world!

so,u know the place nobody knows..
so uve seen the ruins,ure picking up the pieces
u want to see it all over again in one piece.

i dont hold the sand tightly any longer,
as time keeps slipping by, just the way u told me..
the answers are not in the looking glass..
they dont see me...even if im without my mask
they just keep on abusing, they just keep on and on
they just keep on hurting...

now i feel older than time..
where did it all go wrong?
am i banging on the wrong door?
i know you watch me helplessly, reaching out to me..
and i scream and shout, and i keep on banging the unanswered door..
u keep silence as your voice to make me realise its all a waste,
but you know i will keep returning to bang on the door for it to open..

i can see your tears, i can see u feel my pain..
i can feel your helpness,as u see me turn insane
i know you want to take it all away..
but honey its the same illusion..they made me see..
careful now, dont let them do the same to you..

all the people,they are not what they seem
thousand of lies, theyll crush all your dreams
money...money...money..
thats all they know, thats all they care,
thats the only reality..

are u still coming with me?
are you still wrapping me in your arms?
are you still sitting by me?

ill tell you the stories.ill tell you where it begun
u tell me where it went wrong..


my circle is complete!!!

illusions

how far am i too deal with the distance?
how long am i too keep you in this confusion?
dont you know, everyone seems to come and go from my world!!
there is paranoia, there is only confusion, there isolation..
there is hysteria..

dont u know,all these thoughts keep coming and going.
dont you know all the bitterness has lead to a hollow dream
dont u know that becoz of me, the greys can colour you too
dont u know?

im sitting in the corner hurled by myself and watching everbody pass,
but u come down and sit beside me,
to be buried with me in this insanity!

ive heard people shout out all the words to me!
and i wonder all the time,how crazy is it to be me?
i wonder how people in my world cant see me?
and u still want to sit beside me?

such is my life..
its all an illusion..
such is me..
im your illusion..
and all that will last is the taste of my essense in your heart!!

in your eyes.. saw u say a thousand words that i couldnt say.
in my heart i felt a sudden surge of peace ive been looking for.
in this daily facade, i forgot the most important question,
who am i?
u came along and made me realise that the broken dreams, the lost hope the dead faith,
did not leave any scars...
when u came through the window like the ray of light
need a little time to wake up!!!coz i was shut for so long...

i opened my eyes, to see every other colour again,
and to realise that dreams and illusions are the same!!
and that ive lived in a colour that did not exist in a rainbow!

for everytime id look to the sky for strength no matter how dark or bright it was..
even there were days that people told me it did not exist!!
and now u could be a part of my world,and ill show you the world that i had hidden..

Wonderwall- lyrics

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybodyFeels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I wouldLike to say to you
I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after allYou're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know howI said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after anYou're my wonderwall
Said maybeYou're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

Calls!!

Strangest of thing, real is my dream
I found myself,in someone's heart..
The waves of my shore called out loudly to me
They wanted me to join them in thier search for my dream
I let the waves sweep me, i gave in this time
Fighting them was of no use,they made me realise..

Far across the sea, was shores of somebody,
Calling me all this while!!
Those were the waves, those were his calls,
I did not see them, i had shut all my doors.

The waves kept geting louder, they kept growing strong,
They were bent on breaking the shackles and my wall.
I kept ignoring, i did not want to hear the calls
Kept on killing myself slowly,till they broke my walls!!

They reached out to me, they kept on calling,
They said you have to believe,you have keep on riding.
So i let go of my paranoia,I let go of everyhing.
I let the waves carry me,from where they came!!

They brought me to the shore of a place i had been longng for
And there stood he,with his arms open wide,
he wrapped me close, he held me so tight.
He looked into my eyes, with silence as his voice
He told me,true love waits,
Waits till the end of time..
He told me, is alright to be broken
coz the soul is untouched,
He told me, we are the complete circle
We are blessed from heaven above!

FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!

i broke free..finally from the clutches of misery that kept me bounded and in pains for the last 3years..
and somehow i saw the light that was brought before my eyes..
I couldnt rot in silence any longer,i took my chance!!!

And I RAN.....FAR....As FAR As i could go...nto the arms that ive known

I found Peace..after a long time!!!!!!

Atlast..im alive, i can sense the breathe inside me,my heart finally beating...

and finally i found myself complete!!

finally found the colours in my grey world!!!

found the perfect half 2 my circle