I don't recall the last time I blogged. Probably a year back!
But over the last one year, not much change has happened, except for the exhaustion of my mind.
Corporate slaving...strange as it seems is the only way to have a secured present.
Secured present- sounds like an oxymoron, i'd stay my past is secured , there is no way i can alternate it.
I always asked my self what is it that I truely desire, I can never answer that. I always found distractions towards getting the answer. I do know one thing for sure travelling all around the world, visiting places of historic remeniscence would definately help. I for one thing would love to hear stories.Stories of all the places that I would visit. Stories that would make me imagine, what time might have been like before. I guess the little child in me does not want to give up.
I do realise today that all these mere bonds of love and friendship will cease to exist.There have been so many friends that have left my life, I cant even count, my love for my parents and my pet, seem to be platonic, yet there are times when I do wish that I stopped existing for many varied reasons. Love- well that is a strong word, I and wonder is it truely possible to believe in that magic?
I am confused by all these distractions, a few years back I would believe that finding your soulmate would resolve everything, you would complete the circle.To my surprise, not quiet the solution. I am now surrounded by people whom generally in my general naive knowledge would be termed as two face, has now one name - Oppertunist. They dont need to do those shitty things really, they are strong individuals, but some how insecurities, jealousy has lead them to be that way. I guess it is this what Mr Darwin called : survival instinct.
Have you ever wondered why is it that people relate to tragedy more?
Say for example, a tragic love story, a tragic song, a tragic piece of art blah blah... people can relate to that. Humans are incapable of relating to happiness. I think that in order to be happy, one needs to be selfless, perhaps then we could relate to happiness instead of tragedy.
