Nothing yet everything

You heard the giggles, and the awkward smile.
You try to ignore them and let them pass by.
A fleeting glance to recognize those faces,
your hands are cold and your heart races.
You pick up the pieces of yourself and walk on
those harsh words are only here to judge without concerns.

Judgement is for the one above,
whose heart is filled with nothing but love
The dark comes with the light
and peace will not exist without a fight
Words can only mean so much
the heart feels more emotions that words cant touch!

You are more, beyond and nothing
Yet you are omnipresence of being, of everything.
You are here and you are now
You are as bright as the blackest day.

who has the remote?

Loud explosions, I looked out and the cars parked went flying into the air one after the other, I could hear commotion. I thought to myself how did the car just blow up in sequence? I quickly realized that "terror" was here. 

"Lock the doors" and "turn off everything. Do not make a sound and hide yourself" I said. While I kept on hearing the loud "thuds" and explosions of cars. I quietly sneaked out into the corridors to see if the grill was locked to the passage of the floor that we were on. I could hear footsteps, and glass lying around, broken tube lights in the passage. It was a mess. I quickly locked the grill and turned the lock and made my way towards the flat that we were all hiding in. I woke up!

Maybe I am watching too much television, maybe too much of action movies, or maybe I'm watching too much of the September 11th attacks. Whatever it is - it is a manifestation of fear. Dreams don't lie and that's universe's way of communicating with you.

I often laugh and tell my close ones that when I'm sleeping - it's like watching a film. My brains cooks up cool plots and story lines that I cannot imagine in my waking life. But if I dig deep i know it's all about control.

As we grow older, we forget how simple life is, we are controlled by our surroundings, our environment, our peers, our friends, our relatives, our society. Even though I live by my rules, I can hear myself holding back. Life is not like those wonderful quotes you read, or some lines that a great leader said somewhere. 

Truest form of freedom is something I'm yet to comprehend and understand. For now all I want is my remote in my hand. 

Work according to my skill set
Plan a holiday as and when I please
Buy things that are not constrained by my pocket size
Meet people who can explain to me more about the universe
Travel to all those places I read about, where history made it's greatest mark
Eat food that fills my soul
Paint, draw, sing, dance, read

What if only women existed

International woman's day - one day entire day where your facebook timeline is filled up with people wishing all the woman around the world. All sorts of messages are being communicated - some say they wait for day that both genders are equal, some speak of the unspeakable horrors that one goes through. While all of this drama unfolds within the digital space, and I sit on my desk with a cup of coffee and reading through these messages I stop to think what if only women existed - how would our world be different. Would there be less violence?

Rape would need a new definition, fashion would be completely different since our perception of beauty will be completely different. What would world leaders fight over? War would mean more of mind games and verbal spats instead of guns. The economy will change since countries will not need ammunitions and artilleries. Will streets be named after shoes styles? Will  food be wasted less? what will the religious fanatics now fight for?

Just saying - we might need to reinvent/rediscover the way we live today. One thing will be for sure - there will colors...and maybe perhaps a bit of glitter at the corners.

#foodforthought

Naming your unresolved feeling after a comic book villian

Dumping unresolved feelings in the past don't make it go away. They have a way of coming back.

It sinks into your skin and makes you stand in your own miserable mess. 

If you are afraid to face them, you should be prepared to know that it never goes away! If even you stare it in the face, battle it and get over it, it does not mean that it did not exits and it wont.

Imagination is our gift and curse and when you imagine yourself standing face to face with those unresolved feelings all you can do is, not let it consume you.

It's like those comic book hero's fighting their nemisis. They keep coming back. Well your unresolved feelings are going to be like those villians who dont give up. They plan to rattle you up, when you are least expecting it. You can be prepared, but they are gonna come...

Sometimes collecting the broken pieces are not going to be found and those are the spaces where these supervillianous unresolved feelings reside. There is no escaping it, you need to "Suit up" !

it radiates...

The ups and downs are very part of our existence. However through the days, there are times when you actually sense that you exist only in that body, and everything around you seems to be distant.

There will be days when you get up and think, I have to get through the day, through this insane run against time and keep your head engaged in everything around you that you actually do not want to be a part of. It's not a part of you. You think perhaps walking somewhere on your own and blending in with the surrounding will help you disappear. 

and then you realize you cant!

Maybe the day after will be better, maybe you will be more positive and willing to face whatever is thrown your way. But not today. Today is one of those days you will need to get by.