black box

It's a dark box! It's glass and u can see everything around u. But u are not participating. You open ur eyes and u brush ur teeth, stand under the water...but ur body feels like stone. U simply put on ur clothes have a cup of tea and rush. But ur still inside this huge black room. Everything and everyone appears to be talking to u from far. U forget! U need to write or create, u just want to shut out everyone. U want to hear music , read something and not be part of this sham. It's pointless. U don't feel anything....but u feel everything and all at once. U have to be this person ur not. You don't want to talk nothing excites you anymore. Perhaps a walk would do, perhaps at the edge of a cliff u want to sit...watch the sunrise or sunset. Ur trapped. Every inch of ur body aches. Every inch of it feels like stone. Ur exhausted. U want to sleep but as you lay down, the day starts playing in ur head. Before you know it ur alarm rings. U wake up and then u just want to sleep! And the rhythm continues...