why is it i feel that there a suction within my heart and that it will collapse on its own,
my pulse keeps racing faster, my head turn light and then the world begins to swim all around me as if im at the center!
and i feel so drained within!!!

And yet infront of the world i put on my bravest mask and walk ..
yet im all broken inside, where can i hide all these negetive feelings?
how can i turn these feeling into something positive
how can i kill it before it kills me?